“I’m living.”
Category: Relations, Studies, Walk of life
Yesterday, around this time or later, I got to meet my old professor at his home. He had helped my colleagues and I through out the whole course of our clinical rotations. I had heard he wasn’t feeling well but I did not expect it was this bad.
We asked if we could see him, not knowing truly how bad a condition he was in.
He was brought out by two young boys, walking ever so slowing, pausing for a bit and starting again. The moment we saw the sight of his frail, delicate profile, held up and being assisted to walk, we got up and helped him to his chair; the guilt of having made him go through all the trouble weighing heavily down on our hearts.
He looked at us, through those patient eyes, just as he had four years ago when he first met us; therein lay the evidence of the youth that was still him, despite the fact that the disease had weakened most of his body. When asked how he was doing, he smiled a shaky smile saying, “I’m living. A little painfully, but living just the same.”
It was heart-breaking.
We didn’t stay long, it was obvious he wasn’t at ease in the chair. We wished him well and thanked him for everything. As we were leaving, he turned to me, eyes glistening and smiled his shaky smile. “Good.”
I smiled back at him, knowing the significance of just that one word and knowing that it was enough to last a very long time.
Tick, tock, tick
Category: Studies
The list:
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Qbook, Qbank, NMS Review.
Like Faye said: “Clock is ticking, time is flying, life is passing and the future is coming. I shall seize the day.. hopefully.”
I need anti-anxiety medication..
Category: Ramblings, Studies
I extended my exam for a reason. Seriously I did. But I’m no better off than I was then. Any of you who plan to extend their exam to a later date or postpone it, don’t even try to. I repeat, DO NOT. It’s not going to do you any good.
June, July, August - I spent taking the review course at the study center. I was supposed to take the exam on Aug 26th but chickened out. I couldn’t review everything in 2 weeks. So I extended. September came and disappeared. In that period of time, I fell sick for a week and took time to recuperate. Did I study? Not really, I just did those questions online. I guess I did learn something but eh. Now its October, my exam is exactly a month away (Nov. 7th) and how am I on the “are you ready now?” status-o-meter? Like 0.
So I decided, I can’t run away from it anymore. If I give 2 and for some subjects 3 days, I can finish reviewing (hopefully once and then twice) with 10 days to spare. That’d be on the 25th/26th. In those 10 days I’ll review my weak points and drown myself in practice questions.. Relax a bit on the 6th and take the exam on the 7th.
I know that’s cutting it extremely close. EID comes inbtwn those days. I’d reschedule if I could (its different than extending the exam period) but it costs almost 200$!!!!! No way will I be willing to pay that amount, and I’d have to ask my dad.. he’d ask why I wasn’t studying the past month. Plus, it’s time I faced it. So wish me luck everyone.
This helps clear my mind a little. I just hope I’m not fooling myself into believing I can do this. Otherwise I’m screwed.
To do or not to do
Category: Studies
Whether the weather be fine
Or whether the weather be not,
Whether the weather be cold,
Or whether the weather be hot,
We’ll weather the weather,
Whatever the weather,
Whether we like it or not
I’m gonna shift my focus to my studies for the next 3/4 weeks. So don’t be surprised if I disappear during that time. Hopefully I’ll make it through.