Does this sound odd?
Category: Emotions, Rants
Consider this situation between two people/friends:
Boy: I love you
Girl: …
Boy: I love you
Boy: and it drives me crazy
Girl: *speechless*
Boy: I don’t even know why I love you
Boy: I don’t even know if it’s love
Girl: *thoroughly confused now*
Let’s disregard whether or not the girl likes him back. And look at it from an outsider’s perspective.
Isn’t a bit disappointing and even a bit insulting to have a boy claim that he loves you and yet cannot state a reason why? Isn’t it odd, or is it just me? I’m not saying he should always have a reason, but wouldn’t it further add to the romance of the situation if he said something like “because you’re you” or something equally cliched and disgustingly lovey-dovey?
But then he’d be lying if he didn’t mean it.
Of course, there’s the way it was said too. As if there couldn’t have been a reason for him falling in love with you, like you were deficient in something. Or as if he was settling for less. If he loves her, shouldn’t he be able to at least give a reason why?
Now if that doesn’t throw the romance out of the declaration, I don’t know what does.
… Or am I taking it too far?
The whole ho-hum
Category: Rants
I think I’ve had my fair share of formatting hard drives and re-installing operating systems, usually done on the pretext of getting rid of viruses that were apparently corrupting my system. The whole tedious affair of downloading programs, installing, setting preferences and transferring backup files is just that: tedious.
After securing an antivirus running, one of the first things I do - since I’ve done this often, is to start up Internet Explorer and download Firefox. MSN messenger comes next, because then I’d be able to complain to those willing to listen (Sorry Tammy, Leo) just how annoying the whole procedure is.
And while we’re on that, couldn’t Windows Live Messenger be downloaded as a simple file like it used to? WLInstaller that has to be downloaded takes its own precious time to install it instead. Mind you, it never took the first or even the second try to work. At least, not for me.
Next to be downloaded/installed are SpyderPro (which is immensely relieving since the bright LCD gets nauseating at times), Adobe Acrobat Reader, Microsoft Office, Photoshop, Itunes, and other programs I know I’d need but cannot for the life of me remember until I do.
I guess what irked me the most this time was the loss of feed subscriptions. I forgot to check to see if there was a way of backing them up so now I must go and find them again. Tiresome, but needed since it’s the only way I’ve been keeping track now-a-days.
That said, I hereby demand that everyone enable RSS feeds on their sites.
Wistful thinking. Luckily, it’s easier to find WordPress feeds even if they’re not visibly linked to by site owners. For that, Skye’s Fairy Ring came in handy - at least for those sites that had feeds to subscribe to.
Rilla’s post on Firefox add-ons, once found, was life saving in many ways. However, my paranoia eventually lead me to browse some 30 + pages to see if I missed something. So while I was at it, I made a similar list for future references.
And I want my MSN smilies back.
Expectations
Category: Rants, Relations
I’m just a normal average student. A normal average student who got her score. A normal average student who got her score and would’ve been okay with it if the people who mean the most to her weren’t disappointed with it. I know they are. My parents, I mean. They’re trying hard not to show it. Their expectations are so high. Everyone’s are.
But I killed them. And I feel like I might have just failed. To roughly quote my dad –
“It’s not bad. Who knows.. in your clinical exam you may get a 99, something”
It’s what he said and the way he said it. Expectations. I hate having to disappoint people if I don’t live up to them. I hate creating the impression that I may live up to them. I just want to be a normal student. Not an overachiever, not a super-smart person, no matter how nice that would be. Just normal.
It actually happened to me!
Category: Ramblings, Rants
The day started out fine actually. I woke up around 2 in the afternoon (for which I had a totally justified reason for — I was up last night studying. Yes, that’s right. Studying) Well anyway, the whole process of getting up, breakfasting/lunching, talking to my cats (yes that’s crucial) and finally getting to my study center took 3 hrs, I was there by 5pm (when actually I’m supposed to be there by 2). But let’s just pretend that’s not an issue, hmm?
My mom makes some awesome coffee, really she does. She was even kind enough to give me a thermos full of it. *hugs mom* But little did I know that said thermos was devising an evil plot against me… I mean how hard can it be to drink from it right? Pop the cap, sip right? WRONG!!! I struggled with it for a good 15 mins wondering how the hell was I supposed to drink from it.. tactics ranging from screwing off the lid (didn’t work), shaking it, and finally knocking it against the desk. Frustrated, I simply put it to my mouth, tipped it over and.. *SPLASH*
Hot coffee and burnt lip. Can I say ouch? AHHHH Not only did I now I have coffee all over me but my nice dress was ruined. frown Ofcourse, being the smart, quick thinker I was, I acted like this happened all the time and simply carried on with my work, even though people started giving me weird looks. In the end, though, I trudged to the washroom to wash it off.. I smelt like coffee!! And no matter how awesome coffee smells, it was starting to give me a headache.
Of course, you’d think this is where it all ends right? Spilt coffee, wash up later? Nope, fate wouldn’t have it that way. Not only did the washroom NOT HAVE running water, but when I finally managed to find some, in my attempts to clean off the coffee stain, I drenched a wonderful portion of my dress.. that now appeared darker than the rest.
Don’t ask what happened next. Let’s just say that I decided to soak the rest of the dress so that it would at least LOOK like one solid color.
I could just end this here, but nooo there’s more that I have to rant about, trust me, its gonna take a while.